Thursday, September 30, 2010

Sad or Happy day??

Today I signed papers at the nursing home. I am full of every emotion. Excited, scared, anxious, devastated, happy, not so happy. In the past week I have taken the NCLEX, passed the NCLEX, got a job and have been searching for the perfect day care.

This job is something that Brady and I have been praying for and it's the most perfect job at the most perfect timing. Here is the up side:
-I am working 30 hours a week 6am-2pm (so four 8 hour shifts with a 30 min. lunch). I am also working every other weekend, which means I will have 2 days to work during the week (and weekends) and then back to 4 days. Does that make sense?? To explain it in another way...I will be working 4 days a week total including every other weekend. haha
-It pays extremely well (more than double what I've made in the past)
-It will give me the experience I want and need to apply for other positions
-I get to have adult interaction and maybe meet new friends
-I still get my afternoons with Cooper and for myself...maybe a nap or two :)
-It's in the field I went to school for and love

So you might ask "what's the down side?":
-Cooper must go to day care :( I have cried SO many times in the past week that my eyes are permanently glossy. I know it will only be 4 days/week then 2 days/week but I have put 98% of my time and energy into raising our boy and making him happy. He's been at my side everyday, all day (with the occasional shifts at the hospital for school) since I got pregnant. Since I graduated from BYUI in April we haven't been apart for more than a few hours...I don't think ever more than 4. It's going to be a difficult time for the both of us. I want to be a stay-at-home mother. It's what Brady and I have planned all along but this job opportunity has been a blessing and is an answer to our prayers. The main reason for a job is because our townhome is still up for sale and no one has shown interest in renting. A mortgage payment, HOA, rent, utilities for BOTH places, along with everything else makes it kind of tight financially... especially with a baby. With this job we won't have to worry about our finances and we can actually save more money. Stay out of debt right? We do have someone walking through our townhome tomorrow morning but I'm not going to get my hopes up like last time!

So is today a sad or happy day???


Amanda Petersen said...

It's definitely both! I'm glad you were able to find a job but I understand how hard that's going to be leaving Cooper. It sounds like a pretty good schedule though. Cooper's one lucky little boy to have a mama who loves him so much. I hope everything goes well finding a day-care and starting your new job!

Ty & Masha said...

Sorry that you have to leave your baby at the daycare. It's tough. If you guys lived in SLC I would totally watch him for you. I hope things work out. Masha